Ah yes, a word I've used plenty of times. A word stuck in the back of my head for a long time. A word that I'm generally sick of. Put simply, I've made very little artistic progress over what's been about a year now, which may sound like self-deprecation when looked out from an outside view. And maybe it is, as moments like this are quite common for artists, if I can even call myself one. I find myself often comparing myself to other creatives and what they can make, disappointed in how I can't reach similar heights. I even end up comparing myself to my friends, some of which are making progress significantly faster that me, or are just insanely talented. It leaves me with a vague form of jealously, which can be common with topics that one wishes to improve in. It by no means changes my relationship with them, but it leaves me a bit envious. Little by little I make revelations in regards to drawing, like how to make lines smoother, ways to ensure the desired effects of certain sketch layers, etc. But I overall feel that it's not enough, the progress isn't adequate for the level I want to eventually achieve. Feelings like this eventually lead to a form of self-loathing and disappointment, which spreads into other topics as well. Heck, I even find myself disappointed with the length of these blog posts as well, which I know is ridiculous. It gets to the point that I can't even finish some of the pieces I start, seeing it as destiny for me to completely screw it up at some point. I never thought that I would have any form of stress with drawing, yet I do. Every single thing that I've drawn is plagued by the feeling of stagnancy and irritation, making what was supposed to be a fun hobby more of an infuriating learning process. And I'm quite honestly tired of making kindergarten drawings over and over again. Regardless, I'm not completely out of hope. My determination to improve in art is still unbroken. It still brings me joy, and frankly, a way to kill time. I still find plenty of inspiration from other artists, some of which being close friends, which is quite convenient. And while I doubt that they're reading this, I'd like to say thank you to them, for everything. Improvement will come for me eventually. I'll just have to keep being inadequate until then.
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Well, it's over. And boy what a trip it has been. On the 1st of October, Monster Hunter World Iceborne released its final update, meaning that production on the game has officially come to an end. And I'm sad, to put simply. This is both the end of a game that I put so many hours into, but also the beginning of a revolutionary new age for the series. This title alone became Capcom's bestselling title of all time, selling millions upon millions of units. I also feel that it helped catapult the series as a whole into the spotlight, drawing in far more fans than any of the other games that came before. It makes me so happy to see what this title has achieved in just two years, a monumental amount of progress to made in a relatively small amount of time. I never expected this title to make the waves that it did, being able to create entire communities, and become a contender for GOTY in 2018. They may not have won, but I'm fine with that, God of War definitely deserved it. But just being able to make it that far is a true testament to the leaps and bounds it has made for the entire series. I seriously admire the sheer amount of passion and dedication put into the updates for the game, as a way to introduce new challenges for the players, as well as breathe life into the story. It's been a long few years, and this game was without a doubt one of the highlights. I still see myself playing this in the future, especially with the release of next-gen consoles. And I can't wait. Thank you Iceborne
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AuthorI have a passion for creating things, and hopefully one day those things will be video games. You can check over on this blog if you wish to see any updates on my work or other subjects. The views and opinions expressed in this blog are solely those of the author and do not represent those of Durham School of the Arts or Durham Public Schools.
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